Thank you for the thorn Lord.

While nothing will ever pale in comparison to the trials Paul went through, I can relate in a small way to what he was talking about in the book of Corinthians. I have this part of my life that I want to make disappear but not only am I in a position where I must embrace it daily but I hear the Lord telling me to continue in it and not run away. This is not something I want at all because it hurts so badly.

…because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.  Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.  But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2 Corinthians 12:7-10

The constant reminder of the pain stays fresh on my mind and in my heart, I want to beg the Lord to release me and just lock this thing away but the Lord uses it to keep me grounded and humble. The moment my tears come I drop to my knees in worship and prayer. When my life starts speeding by again, it slows me down and grounds me. While this thorn is very painful, it keeps me closer to the Lord and understanding His perfect will.

No one really knows what Paul’s thorn was. His was caused by Satan but used for God’s purpose. Isn’t it amazing how God will use all situations for His purpose? God truly is good and in control. While we may never know the reason of our trials we do know that God has a perfect plan and purpose and instead of rejecting and fighting our trials we should be honored the Lord cares enough to guide our paths. “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ”

Thank you for thorn Lord. I trust you and look forward to what you have in store for us. I pray that I can be humble enough to receive your instruction without hindering the Holy Spirit.

…how can anyone be right in the presence of God?

…how can anyone be right in the presence of God?
Someone might want to argue with God, but no one could answer God, not one time out of a thousand.
God’s wisdom is deep, and his power is great; no one can fight him without getting hurt.
God moves mountains without anyone knowing it and turns them over when he is angry.
He shakes the earth out of its place and makes its foundations tremble.
He commands the sun not to shine and shuts off the light of the stars.
He alone stretches out the skies and walks on the waves of the sea.
It is God who made the Bear, Orion, and the Pleiades and the groups of stars in the southern sky.
He does wonders that cannot be understood; he does so many miracles they cannot be counted.
When he passes me, I cannot see him; when he goes by me, I do not recognize him.
If he snatches something away, no one can stop him or say to him, ‘What are you doing?’
God will not hold back his anger. Even the helpers of the monster Rahab lie at his feet in fear.
So how can I argue with God, or even find words to argue with him?
Even if I were right, I could not answer him; I could only beg God, my Judge, for mercy.
If I called to him and he answered, I still don’t believe he would listen to me.
He would crush me with a storm and multiply my wounds for no reason.
He would not let me catch my breath but would overwhelm me with misery.
When it comes to strength, God is stronger than I; when it comes to justice, no one can accuse him.
Even if I were right, my own mouth would say I was wrong; if I were innocent, my mouth would say I was guilty…

-Job 9

Let that grip you for a moment! Who can be right in the presence of God? How often do you stop to think about the power and glory of the God who moves mountains, the terrible power of God that makes the earth quake, the awesomeness of the God who spoke the Sun into existence and who snaps His fingers to destroy stars? Who can be right in the presence of God?

Who? —– YOU! But not because of anything you have or ever will do but because God loves us so much that He sent a final and perfect sacrifice to bridge the gap between our sin and His glory. We have Jesus! Stop and think about that today. Oh, how He loves us that He sent His perfect, blameless son to atone for our shortcomings!

If you are saved, please dedicate some time alone with the Lord to meditate on how valuable the gift you have is and remember where you were that got you where you are. Thank you Lord for saving a wretch like me. If you don’t know the Lord, please take a moment to read this short post and contact me or follow the link at the bottom of the page mentioned.

Please God, help me to not beg you to stop the pain.

Please God, give me the strength to not ask you to stop working on me through this pain. I just want to cry out for relief but I am changing, I am caring…I hurt and cry and I see so much more now. I see the needy where once I just walked by, I pray for the lost and suffering and my heart hurts for them. Before this pain I really didn’t give it much thought. I want to be a new creation in Christ and You are working on me through my pain. I don’t want to wimp out and plead to you for relief  my Father, if I am not truly changed into a man after your heart. I am tired of the daily grind and pretending to be a Christian, I want the real thing and I need you in my life more than any of the blessings you have given me. Search my heart oh holy Father and cull the worldly from me. I need more of you Lord!