The path is narrow and I am wide!

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Choosing the path is not enough

forkI have learned over the years through both personal experiences and study of scripture that God will allow us to go extended periods of time waiting on Him. It seems as if He is not there and that He does not answer our prayers. He gets us through the horrible pain we land in and we cling to Him and stay close to Him but over time it feels as if He fades away or He no longer cares even though we may be doing things correctly. I don’t believe this is to test our faith or see if we will abandon Him, He already knows that. It is to show US who we are and whether or not we will stay faithful or stray off the path. He gives us the the free will to choose our own path. Perhaps He wants us to know what He knows. I have also learned there is always a consequence for straying off the path or acting without God in our decisions. In the end, what God has planned will happen with or without us kicking or helping along the way.

In Genesis God promised Abram he would have a son and he would have countless heirs yet after many years as his wife Sarai grew old and barren they doubted God and Abram slept with Hagar to have a child and so Ishmael was born. Years later God fulfilled His promise and Abram and his wife had Isaac and Abram went on to be the father of the great nation of Israel but the consequence of his lack of faith was his son out of wedlock went on the be the father of the Muslim nation and the two are at war to this day and the world suffers from a single mans act of disobedience.  Abraham did learn to trust God no matter what as God told him to go and sacrifice his only son, he acted in faith and prepared to kill his only heir but God stopped him and provided an alternate sacrifice. I believe after this Abraham knew he had the faith to trust God and that was the turning point.

Years later the nation of Israel fell to slavery in Egypt where they were killed and punished by their task masters. God said He would deliver them to the promised land and Moses lead them to freedom and they praised God but while they wait in the desert they built false idols and wished they were once again slaves and forgot the pain of the past and what God did for them as they lost faith. In the end Israel did find the promised land but not until all those who fell off the path had died, even Moses did not make it.

I have read countless stories in the bible where God made a promise, the people fell off the path, pain ensued but in the end God fulfilled His promise. I have also experienced it first hand as God saved my son from deaths clutches and I praised him and the storm passed and I fell off the path to wake up lacking in faith and filled with pain. This path may be clear at the fork but when heading down either lane it is easy to find they are both connected along the way and the journey back and forth is a short one. So what is the answer? Clearly it is to have faith in God and follow Him without hesitation or doubt, realistically that is no easy or simple task a self help book or internet outline can help with. It takes the power of the Holy Spirit we all have as a resource but we must get ourselves out of the way and submit…did you cringe at that word? Humility and submissiveness are not words we like to use in our modern American lives but they are keys to freedom and a map to stay on the path to life. There are only two paths to chose from, that is well known but both paths are connected to each other on the journey, sometimes the hard part is sticking to just one. I’m on a side road right now, if you see me come say hello.

Know God, know peace…no God, no peace…

Truth is not relative but our lives are. The old saying: “Know God, know peace…no God, no peace” sums it up perfectly. I have found that when I seek God earnestly, I don’t desire indulgences such as food, sex or stuff. The result of the time spent with God makes it easy for me to lose weight and get healthy, stay away from pornography, save money and pay bills on time. When I slip away I find myself gaining weight, addicted to porn and always broke. Just being real… Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. – James 4:10

Dr. Phil self help plan… nah! Getting closer to God.

There is no formula, self help plan or outline to achieve what you really want. What works for me may not work for you but one thing that will work for all of us is asking the Holy Spirit (if saved) to guide, grant wisdom and control our lives and then allow and submit to Him.

For me, the best way to be closer to God is to be broken. I am stubborn and foolish and when I need Him because of my pain I draw near and see Him. My walk is learning to obey and follow close when all is fine.

Just a few suggestions:


  • Daily scripture reading from a bible that is simple to understand (I like the NLT)
  • Being around other believers and acting on what you have learned is crucial.
  • Going to Church and if you don’t have a church, random acts of kindness are great.
  • As old as the saying is, ask yourself “What Would Jesus Do” and try and do that all through the day.
  • Pray! When you pray, don’t feel burdened and get tired or distracted… no one said it needs to be long. Just talk to God. I pray all day every day but in a simple sentence here and there. I don’t speak old English so my mind for sure is not going to try and recite it. It can be as simple as: What up God? I love you man! Thanks for this day! Time and a relationship with Him will carry your prayer and the bible tells us even when we don’t know what to pray the Holy Spirit will pray on our behalf.

Just don’t be disheartened and know that God loves and cares for you. You don’t have some spot you are supposed to be perfectly perched on and you won’t always have a fuzzy feeling. Before converting from atheism, I had no interest in God or getting close to Him. For me there came a time when I fell in Love with God for who He is and and not what He does. My desire went from looking for truth to blessings to the blesser. I will be in prayer that you get to know Him and His wonderful mercy and grace.

I don’t like it too much but thank you Lord.

It’s dirty, without structure and beyond my control… I don’t like it but I trust you Lord and thank you for the work you are doing. Keep my heart broke if that is what it takes for me to see what breaks yours. All my planning failed, I am not where I thought I would be but I trust I am where you want me to be.

Today was amazing at church and I was truly blessed, the night ended with bad news but I really am thankful Lord, you bless me abundantly. I am eager to see where this road leads, I sure wish I could at least turn the lights on and peak. =) I am loaded up, lets go!

The Secret of America

“I sought for the greatness and genius of America in her rich mines and her vast world commerce, and it was not there. I sought for the greatness and genius of America in her public school system and her institutions of learning, and it was not there. I sought for the greatness and genius of America in her democratic Congress and her matchless Constitution, and it was not there. Not until I went into the churches of America and heard her pulpits flame with righteousness did I understand the secret of her genius and power. America is great because America is good, and if America ever ceases to be good America will cease to be great.”

Righteousness exalts a nation, but sin condemns any people. Proverbs 14:34